So much that you want to get perfect.
The rough draft of my novel (http://joel-rees-economics.blogspot.com/2016/04/economics-101-novel-rough-draft-index.html) is definitely not perfect. Things in various chapters don't match up, and all that.
The almost final draft (http://joel-rees-economics.blogspot.com/2016/06/econ101-novel-toc.html) is also not perfect. In fact, I've been thinking about just abandoning it and starting over. Or even just cleaning up the rough draft and leaving things like that.
I'm running out of time and money, and I really want to find some way to make even a little money with this novel. Maybe bundle it up and sell it in the Android Playstore or on Amazon or something like that.
And, after I had a week filled with family business last week, I have been experiencing a little writer's block.
Wanted to talk about the D&C class with Lectures on Faith (http://guerillamormonism.blogspot.com/2016/07/sort-of-uniquely-mormon-lectures-on.html), but just couldn't find a way into it. Maybe I shouldn't pick up too much doctrine in the novel. (Got quite a bit as it is. :-/ )
But I couldn't find any other way in to the third part of chapter 06, other than to add something about the class to the first two parts of the chapter.
Had an odd dream this morning.
Some kind of relativistic event happens (Reading about Lawrencium and the others before I went to bed last night?) and a building, or perhaps one floor of a narrow apartment building of the type you often see around Japan (one apartment on each floor), gets suddenly accelerated to the speed of light.
But not to worry! even though some people who are important to me are in that apartment. When it comes back around on the other side of its orbit (?), we'll catch it. (Oh, yeah!) And while it is in outer space, it will be traveling the speed of light, so there will be no time for air to escape. (Right on!)
Serious physics issues with this dream.
But the kicker is what we're going to stop it with:
A pile of old bananas.
A very big pile, but, yeah. I mean, hey, why not. All the strange stuff in this dream, might as well do instantaneous deceleration (heh) with a pile of old bananas.
But it makes a good tool for my subconscious to tell me I'm dreaming.
Waking up from this dream at about 3:40 to take my morning shower, I was rather confused. Lots of doubts about this novel I'm trying to write.
Ambient temperature too hot to maintain the shower temperature. That's okay, water straight from the tap is not really cold.
And cold water clears the brain.
Broke the writer's block just a little. Figured out what to do with the religion class so that I can use it properly in the third part of chapter 06. God doesn't require me to do an exegesis of Lectures on Faith in this novel.
Made some additions to the first part (http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.com/2016/07/economics-101-novel-ch06-pt1-second.html) and second part (http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.com/2016/07/economics-101-novel-ch06-pt2-dating.html) of chapter 06.
God has various ways of helping us. Not all of them make strict sense in the light of day. It doesn't matter. I'm moving ahead, and I may get another part of that second semester posted tonight. (It does seem to be the chapter that makes or breaks my attempt to construct the simple economic model.)
Now, if I could only think of some way to make some money with it now, so I can justify continuing to write.
Well, if you're reading it and you like it, you can tell a friend about it.
It's on-line so people can read it. If I see that lots of people are reading it, I'll feel better about digging into my savings.